Last year at this time, Eden still had about two weeks to bake.. so this is my first official Mother's day. It's different being on "this side" of mother's day and not just the "showing our appreciation" side. It's a good day to reflect on motherhood and all the changes, joy and trials it brings. Giving birth was definitely the coolest thing I've ever done (with snorkeling the Great Barrier Reef and breastfeeding in a close second).
It took us a few years of "trying" to become parents, so having Eden here, healthy and happy is more than I could ever ask for. Before I go any further, I want to remember how much I love being a mom on this very day.
Being a mom has been such a great learning and growing experience. I never realized what a control freak I am. I have my own plans and routines and really dislike when they get thrown off! Reed has always been very laid back and accommodating of this.. but Eden? Eden is not always as patient. And really, she's right. There's really no reason that I have to do a load of laundry, blog post, etc. at certain times.. but I've had many, many years of doing things when I want to do them, on my own time schedule. So I've (selfishly) had a hard time with that.
For the most part, I am proud of myself for staying active with my "non-mom" interests.. but sometimes I think about how much easier it would be if I could be totally fulfilled by caring for Eden and our home. I'm sure I would still be happy (I think?), but I love working part time, blogging and doing blogger activities, working on the Vintage shop and showing my face at the gym a few times a week. I can't imagine not doing those things!
We've found a good balance and are always working on improving. We also have a great babysitter who helps make my "non-mom" interests possible. It's also wonderful that Reed is fantastic with the baby, and when he's with her it's as good as having mom there (if not better).
All that being said, she is still my #1 priority and I am with her the majority of the time. She's my little sidekick and I can't imagine not having her around. Even if it would mean that my time was still my own :)
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!